So what happens when mama is done??

Who takes over for mama? Daddy?? lol.

I think I have reached a point in this journey that I am really really done. I am soooooo over all of this.

I am ready to go back to normal.

I am so ready to go back to the normal that we had always known.

I am so ready to go back to work.

I am so ready to have a paycheck and pay bills.

I am so ready to go grocery shopping without having a budget.

I am so ready to go to Target or Kohl’s and shop because I feel like it.

I am so ready to go out to eat because I just don’t feel like cooking tonight.

I am so ready to afford a steak and cook on my bbq grill.

I am so ready to buy a bottle of wine because I used to drink it aalllll the time.

I am so ready to take my girls to dance class and be the dance mom I used to be.

I am so ready to take my baby’s to the park and to the gym so they can have social skills with kids other than their siblings.

I am so ready to go to church without worry of germs, or sickness or tubes being pulled out. I am so ready to get back to working in and for the church.

I am just so ready for all of this to be over with….

Am I blessed? Yes! Am I grateful? Yes! Am I thankful that we are all still alive and kicking? Yes! But do I want this? No. Do I want our lives to be like this? No. Do I want to be the example? No…. but I will.

I will keep going. I will keep living. I will keep fighting. I will keep moving and I will get through this….

I am just sooooooo ready for this to be done.

Happy Monday.

xo