“For we walk by faith, not by sight.” 2 Corinthians 5:7

We all know this scripture from the Bible. We have all pretty much have it memorized since we were children. It’s simple. Walk by Faith, Not by Sight. It is one of those scriptures that we used periodically in our daily lives without giving it much though. When someone is going through something difficult we often hope for the best and remind our friend that this is what they  need to do.

But what about when something happens to you?? It’s a whole different ballgame when YOU are the one faced with an unknown outcome.

I have been faced with a whole lotta unknowns lately. And each time I have heard this scripture. This and “Be still and Know that I am God.” -Psalm 46:10. Each obstacle that we have been faced with, we have had to believe that everything was going to be fine. We had to believe that everything was going to work out just fine. And honestly, it is the hardest thing to do. To believe.

When the facts are in front us… when the statistics show otherwise… when people saying things that cut like a knife… when doubt enters your mind… when your heart is broken in a million pieces and it feels like there is no possible way to stay positive… when life is so overwhelming that you can barely manage to take a breath… when you are drowning in bitterness and sorrow…

…believe. 

…believe. 

…believe.

I will be honest, it’s one of the hardest things a mother can do. A mother feels a natural maternal need to be in control of her life. She feels the need to care for and nurture her children. She needs to be in charge. She needs to hover and love and be near everything her children do. But when you child has an illness or disability…a mother’s very quickly how out of control she really is. She really does not have any control. And the Lord will step in and remind you of that.

In a couple days we hit the two year mark. It will be two years that our lives will forever be changed. Two years that God had placed us on this incredible journey. Two years since we first learned about Matthew’s diagnosis. Two years since the very first time that we were told, Matthew was sick and it is usually fatal. This was the beginning of our journey and all I have ever been able to do is trust in God’s plan.

So high five for making it two years since our lives changed…and hugs for what is to come.

To God Be The Glory
xo