My Thank You to the ones who saved my babies lives

AUGUST 12, 2015

To our doctors~

Our family lived and breathed HOPE while we were going through the Maternal Fetal Medicine offices. Although our sons prognosis was always bleek, we had HOPE. We hoped that our doctors would do everything in their power to save our twins lives. We hoped that if there was any kind of chance, or any kind of positive percentage, that they would take it. We had hope. And when our doctors took that chance… against all odds… we had FAITH. We had FAITH that God would bring our babies to life. We had FAITH in our doctors that they would work their skilled and magical hands and take part in what can only be described as a MIRACLE. I will forever be in AWE of what occurred during our pregnancy. You fought a good fight for our son, for our daughter and for our family. Your God-given talent will never be forgotten.

To our nurses~

I never knew you existed. I had never seen a NICU. Most of the world hasn’t. But no one really knows what happens behind those alarm-secured, no-window-gazing doors of the NICU. Except me. And except you.

I didn’t know that you would be the one to hold and rock our babies when I wasn’t there. I didn’t know that you would be the one to take care of him the first five months of his life as I sat bedside, watching and wishing that I was you. I didn’t know that you would be the one to hand him to me for the first time, four weeks after he was born. That you would know his signals, his faces, and his cries… all better than me. I didn’t know how intertwined our lives would become.

….I’ll never be able to think of my child’s life without thinking of you.

I’ve seen you sit by that baby’s bedside for your entire shift. Working tirelessly to get him comfortable and stable. Forgoing breaks while you mentally Will his numbers to improve. You have cried with us, prayed with us, celebrated with us, and were HERE for us.

I’ll never be able to give in return what you have given to me. Thank you for answering my endless questions, even when I had asked them before. Thank you for your skill…your patience, your friendship. Thank you for fighting for my baby. Thank you for texting me pictures of my sweet miracle and sending me messages from my baby. Thank you for crying with me on the day we were discharged. Thank you for being you.

Most of the world still doesn’t know what any of you do. They have no idea what REAALY happened during our pregnancy and our NICU stay. Most can’t understand how important you are and how because of you, our twins are here. But I do. I will never forget you.  WE will never forget you. Our story can never be told without mentioning you. We are so grateful for you. We thank you for being an important part in our miracles. We are blessed.